Anxiety!

Not feeling too good today. Last two nights haven't been very restful. I've had a lot of anxiety. Feels like I'm waiting for something to happen and it never did. I have had a headache since Thursday and just seems to get worse. I kept a good attitude yesterday and somewhat  enjoyed my day but last night just really did me wrong. I hope that whatever has me like this comes quick. I don't think I can take this much longer.... I finally gave in and took my anxiety meds.  They're kicking in finally.

On a brighter note: I'm going to be an aunt!!!  The baby shower is tomorrow and I couldn't be happier! I'm super excited. Just hope my body and mind allow keep to enjoy it...

Hope all of you do are doing great!!!

today...

I am having a good day today. Life has been a bit different for me lately.  Despite this crazy headache, I'm smiling a little more this week! :) Maybe this wont be my life forever and maybe I'll have another bad day but for now, I'm okay.  I'm learning to tune out that annoying elevator music.  

Someone told me the other day "you're either busy living or busy dying"  I don't want to live my life waiting around to see what happens and being scared of what tomorrow may bring.  With this life, the best I can do is live today and enjoy it. 

Needles

It's been a new kind of day for me. I had some strange pain that I'm sure others have experienced and I'm blessed to barely be experiencing today. I was sitting down and as I leaned against the wall I felt a multiple puncture pain throughout my entire back. It was like I had laid on a bed of needles. Took me a while to realize that it's merely but a newly acquired symptom.  I didn't know that kind of pain until now. And although it was short lived, it was intensely excruciating. 

My body has been hurting me differently now. I have the joint pain and my knees gave up on me yesterday in the middle of Walmart. But I was able to gather my strength and keep going. Today my body aches and my hands are killing me... My elevator music is so loud today! 

I don't know how often or how long this will last but I do know that I'm not planning to give up.

I'll be right back!

Wow! I just realized that I slack off from my Blog so much!! I really need to catch you all up! I promise to do a rant/catch up post real soon!